Monday, July 29, 2013

~ Slowly coming out of the fog ~



The past 5 weeks have been a living hell. Honestly, some days and times I can't even remember what happened or who was around. I've prayed many times that God would please provide some peace, not just for me but for everyone grieving the loss of our precious Abby. This past Saturday I finally began to feel as though I was coming out of a fog ~ misty, cloudy, dark and depressing. Of course, the grief process is different for everyone and I know it's going to take a LOT of time, for me anyway. Of course, the longer we live, the more losses we are going to have and the healing can take a bit more time than the last event.

I have barely skimmed the surface as far as getting this new place in order. Don't misunderstand me, I'm thrilled to be here!  I just haven't had the oomph, the excitement or the energy to do much. With those thoughts and feelings plus my back, it's still just "stuff" and boxes. I know it will get done, especially since I've glimpsed a bit of sunshine. If I knew where my camera was, I'd take a "real life" photo for you!  :)

My thanks and appreciation to all for your notes, cards, good thoughts, prayers and emails. You just don't know how much it helps!

I'm not sure if you 'know' Leslie, my sweet friend from her blog, Gwen MossClick on her name and read the beautiful post that she wrote after Abby's accident.  Leslie writes beautifully and shares gorgeous photos so you will be a new follower for sure!  I will be sharing more of my walk, my heart and my home in the days to come. I can't thank you enough for taking the time to stop by.


I'm so grateful for ~
. family
. dear friends and followers
. great coffee
. a tiny glimpse of healing
. a new home

21 comments:

  1. Thank you Pat. I sure appreciate your sweet words and I'm glad to see you posting again. I'm especially happy to hear about your fog lifting. I know I've already said this but be easy on yourself. Grieving takes time and there will be lots of ups and downs along the way. Just remember there are lots of friends out here who look forward to hearing all about your 'walk' and your 'heart' and your 'home' whenever you're ready to share.
    xoxo
    Leslie

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  2. Hang in there. I'm thinking about you.

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  3. So sorry for your loss! Yes everyone grieves in their own way. Time does heal.

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  4. It's so good to hear from you, dear Pat! I'm still praying for you and your sweet family. I loved seeing a few of the things that you're grateful for at the end of your post. That is a sign of hope. xo

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  5. It's good to hear from you Pat, and I'm so glad you're seeing a little bit of sunshine again. Thinking of you!

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  6. Time. It's just a simple word but it packs a big punch.

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  7. Dear Pat, Just wanted you to know that I've thought of your family so often in the last few weeks. I hope that time brings you all a sense of peace.

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  8. Continuing prayers for you and your family.

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  9. No words Pat - just hugs - as tight as I can send them across the miles.
    XOXO

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  10. Continuing to send prayers and warm thoughts to you. Joy comes in the morning but the night can seem long. Happy to read you are beginning to see light :)

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  11. Pat, there's hardly a day that goes by that I don't think about you and your family. I'm glad that you are able to write again.

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  12. Pat...I am so very sorry for your loss...I did not read that post....my heart sank...I have a beautiful granddaughter and I cannot imagine life without her...My sister experienced the tragic loss of her son and I know how devastating it is for your family...I pray for you and your family...again, I am so very, very sorry!!

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  13. I cannot imagine your pain.

    Please accept my gentle prayers of condolence for all of you.

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  14. I am saying a prayer right now for you and your sweet family. I am so sorry for your loss and I just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you.

    blessings,
    karianne

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  15. Pat, I happened to visit your blog this evening and saw the terrible news. My prayers are with you and your family and I am so so sorry. I visited your friend, Gwen's blog, and read her incredible post. What a wonderful friend and writer she is. Thinking of you and yours.
    Denise

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  16. Pat, I completely understand how you feel. You need time to heal. Everyone experiences different things and feelings and we all go at our own pace.. I am so happy you are slowly moving out of the fog.
    I thank you for thinking of me, while you are going through this difficult time in your life. xoxo Linda

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  17. I wanted to come over and check on you. I see I need to check more often as once again I missed your post. I'm glad you had a glimpse of hope...I remember after my mom died, it was about 6 months and I realized I had gone a couple of days without crying at some point during the day or night. It was a turning point for me. I hope you gradually start having more moments of sunshine than gray skies. Then, you can start to enjoy your new place. For now, just be...

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  18. So nice to meet you, Pat. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Ann at Tarnished Royalty

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  19. You are often in my thoughts, Pat. Hang in there...it will all come in time. We'll be here when you feel ready to share your heart with us again.

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  20. I have read Leslie's post before. It takes time to heal. She has now relocated to Heaven and the hope you are going to see her again.

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It makes my Heart happy to hear from you! Thank you so much for taking the time to say hello. I want to respond to each comment, however, if you are a "no reply blogger" I can't. Would love to have an email address to contact you!